The Comeback

It’s been a year since my knee was cut open for the second time in it’s life.  9 days after that, it was cut open for the third time. The past year has been a year of struggles and and rehab and finding my groove. It’s not been an easy year, but I’ve learned so much about myself this past year.

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I spent 10 weeks on crutches, 5 months in therapy, missed hundreds of miles of running in the past year. I gained strength in my legs and heart, found a new love for biking, and I’ve learned how to track my food and lose weight, even without regular exercise. I’ve appreciated every run I’ve been on, even the runs that ended in tears.

I still have some pain in my knee, but the pain is so much less than it was, and it’s a different pain. It’s mostly a pain of muscle and tendon tightness, not the nagging, grinding nerve pain I had previously. I know as I continue to lose weight and increase miles slowly, and keep building strength, the pain will lessen and I will settle in to a running routine that feels like me.

It’s been a rough year, but it’s also been a good year, since I had surgery 365 and 356 days ago. It’s been a year of healing. I’m ready for the next chapter. The year of building. The comeback.

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May has put me in a bit of a funk. Between travel, busy schedules, and hot temps, my motivation to work out has tanked. I won’t lie, I’ve put on a fair bit of weight since last year this time. And I’m not happy about it. But not being happy about it does not make it disappear. Instead, I fret about it, and stress about it, and end up either guilting myself into trying something new and difficult and failing, or throwing in the towel and saying let’s try tomorrow, or body shaming myself into a tizzy.

Enough is enough.

Tomorrow starts a new month. I like fresh starts for the nice, blank slate it offers. I have set 5 goals for myself for the month of June. All are attainable, and all are small enough goals on their own that I can push myself to achieve, and all together, they are good habits to build over the next 30 days. I don’t feel like any of the goals below are too lofty to set myself up to fail, but all are difficult enough that I will be challenging myself with each one.

Without further ado, my June goals are listed below:

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5 big glasses of water each day. 5 x 20 oz. glasses = 100 oz of water every day. I do not drink enough water, period. I am going to challenge myself to drink 100 oz. per day for a whole month, and hopefully my mood and skin will be thanking me, even if my bladder will get some extra work.

4 runs per week. Running has been a struggle. It’s been hard, and the extra weight I’m carrying around is not making it any easier. I completed a half marathon at the beginning of May, and it was one of the hardest runs of my life. I have been working to get back in the swing of things and starting small, and I need to keep doing this until the joy returns. Running is always there for me, I need to give it the dedication it deserves to reward me.

3 gym sessions per week. Chris and I joined a new gym a few months ago, and we have been trying to go once a week to lift. I am challenging myself to continue doing this, along with going to 2 workout classes over lunch each week. The classes are different enough I won’t get bored, and putting it here for everyone to read will help keep me accountable to go three times a week, which will help build muscle and sweat out fat.

2 other “activities” per week. (DVD workout, or bike ride, or swim, or walk, etc) Basically, be ACTIVE! I have DVDs I can workout to, or I can go on evening bike rides or walks, there is plenty I can do to be active and get a little sweat on, so I am challenging myself to do 2 other activities along with 4 runs and 3 gym sessions, each week.

1 pop per week – or less! I weaned myself off caffeine a couple months ago, and though I don’t get a headache if I don’t have caffeine any more, I still find myself having a pop a couple times a week. I don’t want a couple times a week to turn into every day, nor do I want it to turn into an addiction like it was previously, so I’m going to allow myself one pop per week if I want it. Hopefully, with the other positive changes I am making, I will not always want one once a week, but I’m not going to cut it out completely. MODERATION!

June is going to be a good month, friends. Do you have any goals for June? Share them with me, and let’s keep each other accountable!!

MM: July 24

It’s Monday, and I’m having surgery tomorrow! *insert big eyed anxious emoji* For those who don’t know, I’m having the screws from my ACL surgery in 2009 removed tomorrow.  The doctors believe the screws have been pushing on a tendon and the nerves behind it, causing the increasing pain I’ve been having over the last couple years, made worse by running. I’m very hopeful that it will alleviate my pain and allow me to get back to running!  Anyway, since it’s Monday, I have a few pictures to share with you from last week!

I was able to get a couple miles in with Jenn last week, and boy was it hot out. UGH it was hot! We sat with our legs in the pool after that ridiculously hot and humid run. It was nice to get a little run in with a friend before surgery. Hopefully in a couple of months, I’ll be able to get back to weekly runs with friends!

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I also got some miles in on the bike and on the ARC last week.

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On Thursday night, Chris and I went to the Royals/Tigers game. The Royals had a really good game, and the Tigers did not. We sat in Gordo Nation, and it was lots of fun to get the t-shirt and cheer ‘dem Roys on to a great win.

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We got ice cream at the game, and I just had to put the little hat on Jazzy when we got home. He hated it, but he was beyond cute.

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Saturday morning, Chris and I biked to his eye doctor, to pick up his new pair of contacts. It was super warm and humid out, but we got in our long ride and ran an errand. Win-win!

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Also on Saturday, we saw the new Spiderman movie, got flowers to make the bouquets for our wedding, and did some other wedding stuff.  I planned on saving the bouquet making for the next couple of weeks when I’m laid up with my knee, but I caught the “get stuff done bug” and now all the bouquets are done! I will need to figure out boutonnieres, but that can wait a bit!

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Jasper has really been enjoying all the new spots to lay in our new townhome. Every time I look up, he’s laying somewhere new.  I think he’s happy here, and I know I love it here.  It really feels like home.

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Have a great week! I’ll try to post next week, but if I don’t, I’ll see ya’ll in a couple weeks! I hope everyone stays cool with this crazy heat!