Glancing Back, Looking Forward

6 years ago, I got married.  3 years ago, I moved to KC, and 2 years ago, I got divorced.

My life looks so tremendously different than 6 years ago, in so many ways.  My life looks so insanely different than 2 years ago.

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I am happier now than I’ve ever been in my entire life.  This morning, after I woke up to my best friend and fiancé, and after we went to a race, and ate breakfast, and walked hand in hand, he kissed my hand and told me he was so sorry I got divorced, but at the same time so thankful that I got married in the first place, because it’s part of who I am and part of what brought me to him and is bringing us into our future together.

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I am a different person than I was 6 years ago, 2 years ago, even 1 year ago.  I am more myself now than I ever have been, and I am the most lucky woman in the world to have the most amazing man in my life, forever forward.

2017: April Running

April, I’m glad you’re over! I ran 52 miles in April, which is my lowest mileage for the year. In fact, it’s my lowest mileage since January 2016! You can check out my recaps for JanuaryFebruary, and March if you need to catch up!

I really have no good reason why my mileage was so low. I just wasn’t feeling running in April.  The month started off with the Rock the Parkway Half Marathon. That race kind of led me into a downward spiral, with lots of emotions in many different aspects of my life bubbling up.  I’m fine, nobody needs to worry, but my running has definitely been slacking.  On top of the emotional issues I’ve been dealing with, I’ve been super swamped with wedding planning, moving prep, and work.  None of these things are good excuses, and I’m not trying to write them off, it’s just what happened in April.

I’m glad for May, a clean slate, a fresh start, a new month.

Back to April.  Rock the Parkway was the second Saturday of the month.  I didn’t write a race recap, but basically it was the slowest half I’ve ever run. I walked more than I’ve ever walked, and Chris stayed by my side for every single step. Emotionally, I went through happiness, sadness, frustration, hope, disgust, thankfulness, gratitude, rage, envy, hopelessness, shame, joy, love… the list goes on and on and on…  The race is over, I’ve dealt with a lot of my emotions, and still dealing with a lot more, but I’m in a much better place than I was at the finish line of that race.

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I only ran 11 times in April, the lowest in a long time.  Running is always there for me, and will always be there for me, whether or not I take a break.  I’m ready to get back on the horse and start putting in the mileage again.  I got a nice fun run in St. Joseph while Chris had band practice one Saturday, which was a fun way to explore a bit.

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Chris and I had some good runs too, the weather was really nice for part of the month, really hot and windy for part, and then at the end of the month, got cold and rainy.   I didn’t cycle at all in April. I need to work on that for May, and plan to go to cycle tonight.  I’ve added in some Group X classes, mainly a strength class during lunch once a week, and hope to add in a second day per week soon, and also get back to lifting on my own once a week or so.  Baby steps!

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I finished out the month with the Trolley Run, which is one of my very favorite KC races.  It was Chris’ first time doing the Trolley Run, and my third.  It was cold and drizzly, but we had a great run. I’ll be writing a recap this week.

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Looking forward to May: I have no races, but hope to get in some solid runs. My goal for the month is 75 miles for the month, and at least 1 strength session per week at the gym, and at least 3 cycle classes for the month.  How was your April? What does your May look like?

April stats:
Running:  11 runs, totaling 52 miles
Longest Run: 6 miles, April 23rd.
Races: Rock the Parkway Half Marathon and the Trolley Run

MM: May 1

Happy May!

Once again, I managed to only really take pictures over the weekend.  Jasper and Chris have the most adorable little relationship. Jasper adores Chris, even when he picks him up like this.

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Friday, Chris and I had plans to meet up with my best friend from middle school, Bethany, and her boyfriend Sean.  About 20 minutes before work ended, I was given 4 Royals Diamond Club tickets for that night!  Instead of grabbing drinks with Bethany and Sean, we invited them to the Royals game with us!

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These seats were AMAZING!  Chris and I got there a bit early and walked around before the game started.  It was  pretty chilly night, but the rain held off, and when the wind wasn’t blowing, it was quite pleasant.

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Unfortunately, the Royals lost, but it was fun anyway, and they were ahead for a lot of the game. Our tickets came with food, drink, or merchandise vouchers, so we just had to use them!

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It was really great to catch up with Bethany; it’s probably been over 2 years since I’ve seen her! It was nice to meet Sean, and to have her meet Chris.

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We had a great time!

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Sunday morning, Chris and I ran the Trolley Run.  This was my third time running the Trolley Run, and Chris’ first. It was incredibly rainy and chilly all day Saturday, and we luckily had a break in the rain for the race; it only drizzled a bit.  I’ll have a race recap up soon!

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There was some really crazy weather in western Kansas over the weekend, SNOW and blizzard conditions – the interstate was even closed halfway across the state.  I hope everyone out west is safe! Happy May, friends!