My post the other day, about my knee, was a pretty big pity party. Though I am still very frustrated with the entire situation, I’ve had some changes in my perspective.
I am thankful that structurally, my knee is in tact.
I am thankful to have good, knowledgable doctors, who are committed to finding the root of my issues and helping me fix them. I am thankful that I have good insurance.
I am thankful that I am otherwise healthy, and able to work toward fixing what is wrong with my back, glutes, hamstrings, quads, and knee. I am ready to put in the work to ensure my muscles and joints are engaging and working as they should be.
I am excited to use this injury as an opportunity for growth and improvement. I am thankful that things are about to change in an important way.
I am trying to not think too far into the future. I don’t know what is going to happen with my three half marathons this spring and first full marathon this fall that I’ve signed up for. I don’t know if I will be able to run them, walk them, or have to downsize them to shorter races. Those are issues for another time. I don’t know about my goals for 2016, they may have to change – it’s too soon to tell. And if they change, so be it; it’s not the end of the world. For now, I’m going to do the exercises and stretches that my chiropractor prescribed, and when I’m released to run again, I’m not going to worry about miles or speed; I’m going go in inch by inch.
I know the road will be bumpy, and windy, and slow going, but I’m glad I am on the road to begin with. I’m thankful for an amazing support system of family, friends, readers, and running buddies. I know that my situation could be much worse, and I’m embracing my opportunities.
I am still frustrated, don’t get me wrong, but I am tired of being sorry for myself about it. I am ready to get better, to be stronger and happier and healthier than before, and to run again without pain.